Google+

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

Mental Illness...

So this is a topic that I have touched on a couple of times in the past but I always end up deleting the posts or making them private. Simply because back then I was embarrassed about it and about the Stigma. I don't particularly like talking about it just because it's something most people don't understand..I was even going to do a post along with a bunch of other bloggers back a few months ago, but I never got to it because..well I simply didn't want to talk about it then. However in light of the recent suicide of Chester Bennington of Linkin Park..I want to talk about it.

Usually celebrity deaths don't affect me in the slightest..Yes they are upsetting and god damn it sucks. However none of them have affected me like Chester's has. Back when I was in middle school I had starting listening to Linkin Park but in high school is really when I started to really struggle with some stuff. Linkin Park and Chester's voice had helped me get through a lot. I religiously listened to Linkin Park and I have most of their albums, except for the recent 3 of them, but I listen to them on Spotify. That is beside the point though. This band helped me get through so much when I was in high school, even when I tried to kill myself. Yes, I am going to admit that right here and now...there is a little known fact about me...After that had happened and after the self harming, I decided to get help from a therapist as well as when I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety as well as Borderline Personality Disorder.

Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) has nothing to do with schizophrenia, so let us just stop that thought process right there. The symptoms include emotional instability, feelings of worthlessness, insecurity, impulsivity, and impaired social relationships. So if you have ever wondered why I am crap at having social relationships...there ya go, now you know. I am also extremely insecure as well as I am pretty impulsive with quite a few things. I also can jump from one emotion to another in seconds. People don't particularly know how to handle it, especially my Husband. Even after 10 years he still doesn't quite understand but he tries. That is all that matters though.

Anyways, all of that aside, BPD is a pretty difficult mental illness to deal with because there really isn't anything that helps it at all. I even stopped taking the medication for it because it didn't help.

Basically what made me decide that I wanted to finally address and talk about it is ultimately Chester's death. I honestly don't think that I will ever get over it. He was such a bright light in everyone's lives. So many of Chester's fans and LPs dans are greatly affected by his death. It just goes to show you that no matter how happy someone seems, there are always demons that you cannot see.

All I ask is that if you know someone who has a mental illness just check in on them. They may not want to talk about it BUT you just letting them know that you care could mean the entire world to them. You never know what is going on in someones mind or if they are struggling with some thing. People are pretty good at hiding things, myself included. Just check up on your friends and loved ones to make sure they are okay and make them smile and happy. You could end up saving their life and not even know it.

I think hearing or possibly talking to someone does more good then you all think. I sure as hell would have appreciated it back in high school. Especially when every one thought it was just for attention.

Be kind to others. 

Saturday, July 15, 2017

Fun At Magic Kingdom!

Hey Hey Hey!
So last Month (June), my family and I went to Disney..well Magic Kingdom for the first time...well it wasn't my first time, but it was so long ago that I don't remember much. The only thing I remember is having a panic attack when I was in elementary school when my Cousins tried to force me onto Space Mountain even though I was absolutely terrified of it. Thankfully I remember a team member letting me out of line to go back to my Grandparents! Then all I remember is the Buzz Lightyear ride? Shooting things and what not..other than that, everything else was foreign to me!

I went with the intention of trying all of the fun little treats that they had in the park! I had some seriously high expectations to be completely honest! However, I was fully disappointed. No joke, there was nothing. No cute little treats or anything, is there an embargo or am I thinking of the wrong park? I did however plan on getting Dole Whip. Totally cliche right? Well, I just had to have it! I bloody love pineapple and this was right up my alley! The top picture of it was mine...or well my Moms, since she took a huge bite out of mine before I could get a picture! I hope you all are gasping, because I totally did! It was quite delicious! This one cup was under $5, which was nice!
After tasting mine, my parents decided to get their own..my Dad of course went with the float! I was totally jealous because the juice was sweet and paired perfectly with the dole whip! Total secret though? If you can't afford Disney but have passes to Busch Gardens...they have Pineapple Whip, which tastes exactly the same...so win win?
Now, I totally forgot to get pictures of every one's food..at this point we were all starving! Cloe got the cutest Mac & Cheese! It was shaped like Mickey..I regret not taking a picture of it for sure. I had looked at ALL of the restaurants in the park because we had to find one that had something that the kids would eat..We ended up settling on The Plaza Restaurant. A good choice really, however, it ended up being more expensive that we thought it would be. For just Chris and I to eat it was $50. No joke! I got the Angus Chuck Cheeseburger $18 (pictured below) and Chris got the Plaza Club $15. Then with the drinks which I believe were about $4...plus the automatic gratuity because there were 6 of us. My parents got the Cheese steak Sandwiches $17 and Cloe got the Mac & Cheese $9 and Chris got the Grilled Cheese $9. Their bill was $80!
Let me just say we all cringed! However, we were expecting to spend a lot on the meal we had, so while it killed us all, we accepted it. I will say that when you get the kids meals, they do get a desert that is included with their entree. I will say that if you have an 8 year old who has a big appetite, don't get him the grilled cheese..or a kids meal for that matter. Chris ended up eating all of my Moms fries as well as half of mine and my Dads fries on top of his Milk and Cookies.
Oh, I should Clarify. My Husbands name is Chris and my Nephews name is Chris...confusing right? This is what Cloe's desert looked like. It's called Mickeylodeon.. It's just a scoop of ice cream, with the cone and chocolate medallion ears. This was seriously so cute!
20170607_183640

We let the kids get 1 souvenir each. Cloe just HAD to have these ears. $30 for a pair of ears that she wont even wear because she said they hurt her head. Gotta love kids! I didn't get any pictures of what Chris got because he ended up looking for something as we were on our way out. I also don't have any pictures of him period because he doesn't like getting his picture taken at all. He got a BB-8 spinning top thing..it is actually pretty cute as well as he got a stuffed animal. Now because he got 2 things..Cloe had to get a second. So she chose a bracelet. I swear it was pure extortion! $10 for a beaded bracelet! I clutched my heart y'all! I am pretty frugal so buying killed me internally. However, it made them happy!
My Mom and I watched the fireworks show up in Fantasy Land because the kids had to ride 1 more ride before we left! We no joke were not planning on staying as late as we did! We were there from open to close! It rained all. freaking. day! Like a straight up downpour! It was crazy...I wont lie, we were all pretty miserable because of it..once it did stop though everyone got happy! 
This dang fireworks show though! It makes you feel all the feels! I did actually cry a little bit watching it. I'm not sure why. Do fireworks shows make anyone else cry? No? Just Me? Well then . :P Baha 

The only thing we didn't get to do on our way out was walk through Cinderella's Castle. Cloe was pretty upset about it. They had closed it because they were about to do a show on the castle. Maybe if we ever get to go back that will be the first thing we do!
I did snapchat a little bit during the day. All of the  pictures I took were phone pictures. Ya know, even though it rained and I was soaked..my eyeliner stay nice all day. So heck ya about that! Anyways. I did finally decide to do a ride with the kids. Of course it was the Pirates ride! I freaking love Pirates of the Caribbean. It holds a special place in my hearts for reasons. Cloe absolutely loved the ride! We all did actually. No real Johnny Depp though! Bummer!
Side note, I wore the shirt in this picture ALL day..and a few other times and not one person told me that it was totally see thru! Thanks guys!
This was at about 3pm I think. She totally just conked right out! it was so cute! Everyone else kept stopping up to tell us how cute she looked! I'm not even joking. People kept stopping us, to look at her sleeping. It was a little weird.
I didn't get a total ton of pictures because I knew it was going to rain and I absolutely refused to take my Canon to the park with the suspicion of rain! I am so not ruining my camera! My Dad took his and never took it out of the bag. I am happy with my phone pictures. :)

We had a pretty successful day at Magic Kingdom! I would definitely love to go back..on a day when it isn't supposed to rain, so we can enjoy it better! I also want to go back to Epcot..I did try and persuade them to go to Epcot instead. I am not even kidding! Once I saw the amount of people going to MK, I tried my hardest! I am glad that we went to MK though...I think we should go back when school starts. Also side note...Disney doesn't shut down rides when there is lightening in the area. I found that pretty interesting!

Thursday, July 6, 2017

Fourth of July Eye Make-Up!

Heya loves! I hope you all are doing well and all had/are having an amazing 4th of July! If you aren't in the US, Happy Tuesday! I have no plans today at all, we are actually celebrating our 4th on the 7th because everyone is off that day! So woohoo!

I had not been actually planning on doing any kind of makeup or anything really at all, but I had seen Be Happy and Buy Polish post her makeup look on Snapchat and she seriously inspired me to do mine!

I should have screenshot her makeup to show you all what hers looked like! It was quite lovely! Now I didn't do anything spectacular or intricate, but I was really excited on how this turned out, I am actually kind of bummed that I didn't go anywhere! But you aren't here to listen to me ramble about never having plans! Hah.

So When I was looking for eyeshadows for this look, I really wanted to go fully with Sugarpill. However, the only white shadow that I have from them is Lumi, which if you have used it before you know it is basically sheer. So in came the Nyx Jumbo Eye Pencil in Milk.
IMG_6474
Does anyone else remember when everyone in their brothers, mothers, sister was using Milk? Talk about Cult product! Ha. Anyways anyways. I had to choose between Love+ and Asylum...I ended up going with Asylum because I wanted to keep everything sparkly. I mean why not?!
IMG_6475
I don't know why, but I feel like with any makeup look I do, I NEED eyeliner. It just feels incomplete without some! Is anyone else like that! Velocity, again from Sugarpill was the definite blue eye shadow that I had to use! It really was and is the perfect color! I dampened my liner brush, which lets be real is an eye brow brush! I dampened it with Mehron's Mixing Liquid because that really was the only way to get the intensity that I wanted from this eye shadow. Once you blend it, as you can see on the lower lash line, it isn't as intense..which is perfect for the lower lashes!
IMG_6482
Because I wasn't going anywhere, I decided to not wear any foundation or anything. Why waste it? I have no idea what it going on with my skin lately but I have so much redness and hyperpigmentation that it is ridiculous. I didn't bother with a lip color either, simply because I didn't think of it. I don't even know what I would have used in the first place! Dang! I totally could have done something fun now that I think of it!
IMG_6476
Products Used:
Sugarpill; Lumi 
                    Asylum
                    Velocity
Nyx Jumbo Eye Pencil in Milk
Mehron Mixing Liquid
Wet n Wild PhotoFocus Lash Primer
L'Oreal Voluminous Lash Paradise

I really think that this is the first time..in a long time that I have not used an excessive amount of eyeshadows or anything on my eyes. It is quite refreshing to just keep it quite simple! Even when I do a neutral look I use at least 3 colors mixed for the crease alone! Hah.

Did you all do anything fun or exciting for the 4th?! I sat and watched Midsommer Murders on Netflix! I totally recommend checking it out for sure!

Best,
Autty

Wednesday, June 28, 2017

The Body Shop Oils Of Life Intensely Revitalizing Eye Cream Gel

This post contains products that were sent for review consideration. All opinions and pictures are 100% my own.

I think that I am going to start putting the disclaimer at the top of the post, just to stop any possible confusion that people could possibly have. Anyone that has been around here for a while knows that I wont talk about products that I don't like or don't actually use. For those of you who are new, you will always find real and truthful reviews here. Both good and bad, so have no fear. :) Anyways, back to the scheduled programming!


When I first had this written up in my notebook, I had an initial review of this Eye Cream Gel. It is such a mouthful that I don't want to type it! Bahah. Three days into using this, I was seriously in love with it! It had made my under eye area brighter as well as it didn't look like I had huge bags from the lack of sleep that I was getting at the time! Don't get me wrong, I am still not getting much sleep a lot of the time, but I do still love the product!

The packaging of this is seriously so cute! It is in such a little golden jar with a black lid on it. The product itself is a light transparent gold as well with .... SHIMMER in it! Yeah, that threw me off when I first noticed it. I do have to say though that you don't notice it at all when you apply it to your under eyes, so don't worry about it at all!

One of the claims of this product is that it "helps your eye contour", I personally have no idea what that is....so I will take their word for it. Depending on the day....or well since it is Florida the temperature, I apply this to my eye lid as well as my under eye area. Is it necessary? No. Do I do it? Yes, because I bloody well can. :)
You can kind of see some of the shimmer in the pot, but let me assure you, once you put it on you will not see this at all. It really is quite a lovely gel once you apply it. It does have quite a cooling effect to it when you apply it. It also does soak into the skin quite quickly so you can apply this and then prep for makeup if you are doing it that day!


This is a pricey little pot though. It retails for $32 USD for a tiny pot of 0.68 fl oz. What I will say though it that will last you ages. This is really one of those products where you need the smallest amount for both eyes. What you see on my hand, is actually way too much. I do think that this is fully worth it for the price though! When I was sick, you couldn't tell! This worked bloody wonders on my eye area that it made me love it even more!

What do you think? Something you would invest in?! I definitely will be purchasing a new jar of this once I run out!

To purchase The Body Shop Oils Of Life Intensely Revitalizing Eye Cream Gel, head on over to The Body Shop and buy away!